you are my everything..

2003-05-09T07:30:00.000-07:00

moved.

http://kisses_.pitas.com ! =) cya there !

2003-05-08T06:46:00.000-07:00

I learned a lesson in my life,
but I learned it the hard way.
I don't know why I used to fall in love
with the wrong kind.
Than I'd suffer so much pain,
but I only had myself to blame.
Baby, you came in the nick of time

To show me love doesn't have to hurt
To feel good, it's such a revelation.
With you I can be myself
And always should
Don't have to cry,
Don't have to fight
Don't have to die
Night after night
Show me love
Doesn't have to hurt
To feel good

Thank you baby

Darling now it seems to me
like I've always known you
But I still shutter when I think back
on the lonely times
I used to keep al my feelings inside
From your eyes
I have nothing to hide
Baby, you came in the nick of time

today has been quite an interesting day. in the morn, a majority had the alcogel bottles in their tables -laughs- but the colours of the raspberry and strawberry were really sweet! though i didnt quite like the smell. hahaha. our chinese teacher can sing really well! well okay you can't compare him to other great stars but he writes his own songs, creates his own music and everything. he sorta 'performed' during the last few minutes of chinese and it was good! =) way to go! well then, american idol was great! agreed? it really was! josh, kim, ruben and clay are really good! im rooting for ruben and clay by the way. dont ask me to choose one cos i wont give you an answer. good luck to those whose mid years start tomorrow (referring to you, gabriel). takkaire loveya'll!

2003-05-07T05:04:00.000-07:00

got the science tests over and done with! =) finally. yesterday's chem test was pretty hilarious. think those sitting on the left of the lab should know why yeah? *ahem* anyway, there's this really cool gel called alcogel or something. it has vitamin e and aloevera. i tell you, its hell nice. right 3c? -laughs- thanks to huiying, all of us are quite interested in this new product. melissa, must thank her kays! -smiles- squeeze some on your palm and rub your hands, its really cool! your hands become really cold and there's a tinge of alcohol smell but when it evaporates, your palms are really sweet smelling! 5bucks a bottle. worth it i tell ya! during project work today, everyone was trying out the aloevera one and the green apple one. i wonder if the green apple and fruity ones attract insects?? whatever it is, i dont like the rest. aloevera one's the best! -grin-

that aside, we hadta present our persuasive speeches today. per wrote a speech on abortion. the whole abortion process is really gross if you ask me. what caught my attention was the story she read. it was 'bout a little girl sitting on Jesus' lap, writing a letter to her mum. she was aborted cos of God knows what. then wenx talked 'bout women rights and blabla. if i see anyone who discriminates women i'll just slaughter them. those who force their wives to abort their unborn child will burn in hell when they die. wanna bet? i mean seriously, are they even human?

shoutouts.
zul - good ol' days? =) read the file you sent me. brings back sweet memories doesnt it? loveya loads li'l bro.
huiying - i wanna see your mini makeover tomorrow! -laughs- thats if you even went to do all you wanted to do to yourself? hahaha.
jiayun - woman! get your ass back to school, please? =) i cant sms w/o you sitting next to me to block! -laughs- kidding. takkaire of yourself! cya around girl!
daryl - heys! =) i suppose we think alike in some ways? the *ahem* part? yeah, you should know what im talking about. take care! cya online! -laughs- msn.
char - you said.. dont say a word.. just now. im gonna say what i wanted to say. you're all wet! =) -laughs- alright alright, cya at sch! your speech was great. but too cheeem.

2003-05-05T00:17:00.000-07:00

Here we are in the arms of one another
And we still go on searching for each other
Knowing that hate is wrong and love is right
for us tonight

When I look into your Spanish eyes
I know the reason why I am alive
And the world is so beautiful tonight

It's a place I've never been
And it comes from deep within
And it's telling me that I'm about to win first prize
Knowing all I have to do
Is reach out my hand to you
Anytime I want to look into your Spanish eyes

Let it be if we're nothing more than dreamers
Who believe that we see no wall between us
How can they be in my heart and in my mind,
when all I could find

here i am again! blogging as usual. got home at 2plus today, early eh? -smiles- neighbour fetched me back, she's got a daughter in sn too. sec1 swimmer. so yeah. anyhow, had some sports day prize giving thing this morning, it was a real pathetic one, postponed cos of sars. had pe after that, really sucked! oh yes, i realised ive grown two cm! -jumps- hahahaha! hadta run 4 rounds today, good thing our 2.4 aint today if not i'd have died. chinese was fun - as usual tho our chinese teacher sorta flared up today. no wait, he merely raised his voice, i wouldnt say flared up cos people like jes and dinah were laughing! -shrugs- per lee and i kept talking. hahaha so he got quite ticked off. oh well. i did pretty well for my amath! =)) FINALLY. at last! talking about tests, ive got chem tomorrow, physics on wed and emaths on thurs. my day was pretty fun as you can tell. oh yeah, jiayun! you better go to school tomorrow! i cant sms without you sitting next to me to sorta block me! -laughs- alright, takkaire! loveya'll! -smiles- good luck 3c! jiayou!

love is splendid*

2003-05-04T00:31:00.000-07:00

You and I,
cannot hide,
the love we feel inside,
the words we need to say.
I feel that I have always walked alone but now that you're here with me there'll always be a place that I can go.
Suddenly our destiny has started to unfold.
When you're next to me,
I can see,
the greatest story love has ever told.
Now my life is blessed with the love of an angel.
How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive,
the dream I found in you.
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me.
But when we touch,
I realise,
that I found my place in heaven by your side.

choir party last night was great! *yum* im still dreaming 'bout the food we had. the beef was fantastic! with the gravy and mustard. roast pork, prata, chocolate muffins? i dont know but yeah totally sinful chocolate stuff. to think i had 11. hahaha! well ambrose had 10 at one shot! high metabolism rate. sheeks! yep and loads of other kinds of food. i drank quite abit! red wine, champagne and some sparkling peach alcohol thing. its amazing i didnt get drunk. hahaha! good thing i didnt, if not everything will spill! *phew*. before the party officially started, this friend of mine told me that some freak wanted to whack me up at church today -smirk- cos my neighbour and i played a prank. he was stupid not to realise it was a prank anyway. seriously lagging. he didnt realise until my neighbour showed him the messages on may day. shucks. and here i am - blogging. meaning he didnt whack me or do nuts to me. whatever. even if he does whack me i think he'll get into trouble not me. lol. cos as i said, it was a harmless prank! -shrugs- no comments. hahaha! alright, i gotta go now. cya'll around! =))

ilu*

2003-05-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows.
If the words don't come my way,
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

A love so tender, i surrender to this
feeling so true
My affirmation, my inspiration
Darling i, have been blessed with you

If the words don't come my way
I hope you still know, I hope it still shows.
If the words don't come my way,
I hope you still know what my heart wants to say

But if i'll be gone tomorrow
Would you know how deep my love goes?
If i was gone forever would you know
how much i care?
That you make me feel like flying,
that i'm sailing on your ocean
That everytime you look at me you see it in my eyes

its good to love and be loved -smiles- last night was crazy. i cried for 2 hours or more. thanks to the wonderful people in my house yesterday. sucks. now everything's fine though. =)) but my eyes are puffy and a little swollen. it was worse this morning! sheeks! -gorges 'em out- well then, if there werent these quarrels, squabbles and what have you, life would be pretty boring aint it? i suppose. thanks to those who gave advice. two people in particular. 'preciate it. and whats this thing about losing you to another person? to the person whom i talked to last night, i dont worry 'bout stupid stuff like whatever you said for instance. seriously, i dont care. im not trying to sound crude or anything im just stating facts. you can go join whoever you wanna join, up to you? alrights, choir party at 7. hope i'll have fun. suckish puffy eyes. damn! hahaha heck. takkaire and cya people! remember, love is a wonderful thing! -grin-

2003-05-02T02:03:00.000-07:00

Me, I'm talking to myself in public and dodging glances on the train and I know. I know they've all been talkin' bout me, I can hear them whisper and it makes me think that there must be something wrong with me. Out of all the hours thinkin, somehow I've lost my mind. Well I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell. I know, right now, you can't tell but stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me. I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired. I know, right now you don't care but soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be.

school was quite fun! =)) had two tests today - a math and elit. i seriously think the elit was a killer but should be able to pass - i hope. anyhow, i think the world's so small! right lee? hahaha! what the heck. oh btw, per brought the perfume today. i thought it was really sweet smelling until she sprayed it on my pinafore. over-sprayed! i breathed in perfume 'air' the whole day! hahaha! when i got home, after i took off my pinafore, the smell was on my blouse. but the smell's really nice. escada - sentiment. or was it sentimental? hahaha! whatever. either one. chinese was really fun - as usual. he's awfully nice. he offered to help two girls buy their chinese textbooks cos they said the bookshop had no stock? hahaha! if only teachers were all like that. we asked him for his o level results too! and he kept saying oh its really easy to pass blablabla and y'noe what? he got 6 or 7 points. what the heck! to him, of course its easy! 6 or 7 points. sheeks! hahaha! yepyep, other than that, school was pretty normal. oh yeah, watched a li'l bit of notting hill during recess. chem test next tues, physics next wed. exams are sucha torture. shucks. yikes oh well, hope and pray that i get my education life over and done with soon enough! =) alrights, takkaire love ya'll! ive got tuition at 7. sucks! -grin- but ive been postponing it for quite a number of times already. hahaha! think she's getting irritated! -shrugs- eh per! what happened in the end? tell me kays! =)) cya!

take the antisocial test.

and go to mewing.net. because laura's feeling social.

take the death quiz.

and go to mewing.net. laura = great.

-points up- now THAT was crap. the one 'bout killing myself fairly soon. retarded!

2003-04-30T21:03:00.000-07:00

All day, staring at the ceiling, makin' friends with shadows on my wall. All night, hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something. Hold on, feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown and I don't know why. Well I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell. I know right now you can't tell but stay a while and maybe then you'll see, a different side of me. I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired. I know, right now you don't care but soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be.

noon! =) woke up at 545, hadta set the alarm if not i'd prolly wake up at 9plus. so anyway, left my house at 645 or a little earlier and walked to church. yes, i was half asleep. sat at hupseng for a while before heading to church. the walkathon wasnt that bad i suppose. perked me up, definitely. after that went to hupseng again. this time with frbrian, daryl, seishen, gary, shiam blablabla. and apparently, they came to a conclusion that i came from china basically cos im fair. -laughs- it was hilarious but then again, its not as if i wanted to be fair right? oh well. i was really hungry but somehow i didnt feel like eating. so i watched 'em eat. yep, that was the fun part today i suppose. other than that, nahhh. walked home, slacked and here i am -smiles-. not sure what im gonna do today. prolly watch American Idol? yep, i will. kae, till then, takkaire! cya'll. btw, thanks daryl for walking with me. hahaha if not i'd be dead bored. lol thanks. kae! ciaos!

2003-04-30T04:11:00.000-07:00

10 things i hate about you

i hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair

i hate the way you drive my car

i hate it when you stare

i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind

i hate you so much it makes me sick

i hate the way you're always right

i hate it when you lie

i hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry

i hate it that you're not around and the fact that you didnt call

but mostly, i hate the way i dont hate you. not even close, not even a little bit, not even any at all.

i love you =)

aint that sweet? -smiles- went to school feeling dead. slept at 2 cos i was happily chatting. but it was indeed fun chatting and i wouldnt have gone offline if the computer shut down on its own when i turned off my table light! spooky. anyhow, i was practically sleeping through every lesson today, attention span was very limited. didnt manage to copy lotsa stuff cos i was really sleepy. to top it all, i had stomach cramps. whatever it is, im glad its all over. here i am blogging and still am dazed. hmmm but the last two periods of the day were quite fun. project work. lee clare per char and myself were talking about lotsa other stuff though we were supposed to write some poem on 'polar bear' or something. we sure are pretty fated with bears. even our comprehension was on polar bears. eeeps! ah yes. why i put the 'ten things i hate about you' up there was cos lee was talking about it and i found it really sweet. somehow i gladly forgot about the movie even though i watched it. -shrugs-. its been a tiring day for me. -yawn- a maths and elit test on friday. good luck 3c! alright, takkaire y'all!

2003-04-28T00:57:00.000-07:00

today was normal. nothing fantastic. look at the words below. isit a song? hmmmm. probably, probably not. 'decode' it yourself.
sheeks.

im on my own

2003-04-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

thanks to whoever i talked to on the phone today

talking on the phone makes alot of difference. -shrugs-. though not everything's cleared, i have a rough idea as to what i'm actually thinking and feeling. no, maybe not, but i wouldn't go there. confusing. life isn't exactly a misery, its flooded with complications however. am i making sense? ummm. to some, life is just going to school then coming home straight and studying. basically, a nerd. im not insulting anyone but ive seen the few people who actually do that. as i said, dont get pissed off or whatever by what im saying cos im not referring to anyone in particular. for us, most people i know, have proper lives to lead. not that those mentioned earlier dont have lives to lead but they sure dont have a proper or what we so-called life. now, are the little complications in our lives good or bad? at times its good, at times its bad and i suppose at times its hard to decipher if its good or bad. am i confusing you? hope not. friendships or relationships all play a part in our daily lives, it all depends to what extent do these affect our daily living routines and in general, our lives. to me, friendships are meant to be treasured. however, i would like to quote from one of the people i talked to today, 'its a two way thing'. if you treat your friend well but in return, he/she takes you for granted then i think the friendship will die off someday. ah yes. i would also like to add that wounds take yongs to heal. wounds, not literally wounds but emotional wounds. it'll heal of course. just that it'll take quite sometime. even after it heals, there'll always be a scar there. but scars do disappear, right? wounds take yongs to heal, scars take longer! sometimes never. it depends how deeply the wound is embedded into a person's heart. alright, i'll end here then. takkaire.

gerald.- thanks a million. had a great time talking to you today. =) as i said, i suppose time passes faster cos you dont hafta really absorb and think so much when you talk on the phone? well, you get what i mean yeah? hahaha! will talk to you another day. study hard! good luck!

God sent.- eh! tsktsk! i wonder how you can forget where you placed your phone. -shakes head- anyhow, thanks for the talking times we've had. oh goodness sounds like im dying but yeah! thanks anyway! =) takkaire and study hard! lucks! loveya!

kor.- heys! how're you? hope you're doing fine kae. seriously, who cares whether they asked you or not. i was online chatting with you so cheer up k? =) good luck for ur exams! takkaire!

arlana.- heys lana! whoa. your blog was a terror one. hahaha! sorry i dont know howta change the font for tht dah-links thing. lol. anyway hope you're happy with your blog. loveya!

2003-04-26T23:48:00.000-07:00

Hold on to forever
Don’t let it pass you by
Hold on to forever
Cause when it’s gone, it’ll make you cry.

Keep these moments
Close to your heart
Cause we’re going our own ways soon
And soon we’re gonna part

Hold on to forever
Don’t let it pass you by
Hold on to forever
Cause it’ll help you to touch the sky

Hold on to forever
Don’t let it pass you by
Hold on to forever
Cause it’ll mean so much to you, later in life

And if you start to feel alone
Or discouraged at times
Just remember these moments
And you’ll feel alright
Cause as long as we remember
Each other forever
We’ll still be together
Holding on to forever…

Hold on to forever
Don’t let it pass you by
Hold on to forever
Remember the good times
Remember the funny times
Just remember these times
And you can hold on to forever…

went for catechism this morning. super boring! before and after class was pretty okay though. think i'm a little whacky these couple of days. the things i say dont make much sense. in fact, i think they don't make sense at all. makes sense? maybe not. this time, its not just paranoia, its something different. dont ask me what cos i've no idea. whatever it is, just stay happy and chill! yeah? =) yeah. hahaha! total nutcase. alright! oh yeah! i realised SLUT stands for Syl Loves U Truckloads. -grin-. real lame but yeah. alright, loveya'll cya!

2003-04-25T05:12:00.000-07:00

meteor shower!
i think the picture's lovely. if only i could witness a real meteor shower. -fantasizes-. a couple of days back a few girls presented their project on meteor showers/rain. the board that they did was really nice! absolutely amazing! i think im obsessed with meteor showers, stars and what have you. i didnt hear what they said though. think they explained quite abit but i didnt get a single word. firstly, they were too soft. secondly, the few of us were admiring the board. =) first thing i asked was how'd they do the board. hahaha! apologies but i was blown away when they showed the board! -grin-. i know im really lagging but i forgot to talk about in the previous entry so here i am talking about it. hahaha! anyway, took class photos today. was quite fun though it was super hot! oh yeah, i think im a scatterbrain. either that or my memory's failing. i lost my e maths textbook (prays and hopes that my mum doesnt read this), i lost the huge file where i chucked all my notes and stuff. and i spent quite abit of time writing this thing and i left it in school. not bad eh? die sylvia die. -slaps forehead- wadssup with me! screw it. sheeks! other than that, the day was pretty cool. oh yeah, changed the layout of my blog. nice? thought of only changing the picture but it looked really gross! cos the rest of the blog was maroon. so i hadta change the whole thing. yep! the weekends are finally here! oh yes, i tried fixing the scanner and the computer suddenly went off. well yeah, i was trying to fix the scanner with the computer on. hahaha! told you i was technically dumb. alright, i gtg now! loveya'll takkaire God bless!

love you loads, God sent! =)

2003-04-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

-stretches- wow. its been a couple of days since i blogged. well i was pretty hyped one day after my birthday. talked on the phone, 'trashed' everything out and tada! here i am. sometimes i think it really helps talking on the phone. oh wait. depends on whom you're talking to of course. if you're talking to someone you hate then uh. why in the world are you still talking to him/her on the phone? oh yes, before i left school i messaged my tuition teacher and told her not to come cos i wasnt in a 'having tuition' sorta mood. left all my textbooks in school and i left for home! but she just had to call me (when i was already home) and said she hadta come but earlier, at 430. great. fine. whatever. had tuition and halfway through, my dad came home and she just hadta say i left my books in school when my dad asked if i did my homework. how interesting. couldnt she have lied or some sort? okay maybe not cos she's a teacher and teachers normally dont lie but c'mon! wha? good thing tuition ended pretty quickly. when she said okay thats all for today i ran upstairs and came online -grin-

nothing much happened these few days. oh wait! Ms Jacob was telling us something about ghosts and stuff? yep! cos one group was doing on voodoo or something then we started talking about ghosts - again. interesting topic, but sure freaks people out. freaks us out to be exact. watched some chucky movie today. not a full movie but some parts here and there. chucky sucks! oh wait. will it haunt me if i say that? ah whatever. heck! anyway, thanks per for taking the same bus? hahaha! yepyep! oh yeah, collected the photos today. quite nice. too bad i cant scan cos the damned scanner is not plugged in and it takes yongs for me to plug it in cos im a computer idiot. technically dumb. heh. alright! good luck for cheena test tomorrow 3c! =) loveyall! take care! oh btw clare, if i get sars i'll come after you. ahahah! nah kidding. tas!

2003-04-21T06:15:00.000-07:00

15th birthday! =)

turned 15 at midnight. supposed to be a 'new year' for me, aint it? the start of a 'new year' and ive teared. not bad eh? -sigh- the day was bad yet not bad. okay, shall tell you why. CME, we didnt do the lifelong learning survey or whatever you call it. and i think we were saved by the bell? =) we'll hafta present on thurs though. during pe, ms lim made us run 3 extra rounds! so altogether, we ran about 5 rounds. hello? i think i nearly died. after the hols, come back to school straightaway run 5 rounds?! madness! i thought the day was sure gonna suck. to start the morning with a run?! no way. after recess, our chinese teacher sang the 93.3fm's birthday song. and it was pretty good. hahaha! considering the fact that he sure doesnt look like one who can sing? yep! it was good. school ended at 2plus.

went out with per. took neoprints and neocard! it was really hilarious cos we took neoprints at the 'cinderella' machine and we pressed the button on some 'ghost' castle story or something? and per kept running out of the machine cos she was scared. well we had fun. definitely. when school ended, our stomachs were growling so we took a cab to scotts. wanted to eat at pasta mania. yep! it was really filling. per bought bacon and cheese chowder from some place and i bought the pasta thing. sprite for me and orange juice for her. goodness! it was super filling! good thing we shared. oh y'noe what? there was this ass chef from some place who met this girl at pasta mania. he sucked. not like i was staring at him or something. i was looking at the pizza the girl was eating! and he said really loudly, "whats so nice to stare". retard! whatever, that didnt spoil my mood. oh yea! bought a top from dpc. not bad. looked quite abstract. met ele freda stace swei melissa chow. anyone i left out? yep! stace's birthday too! happy birthday gurl! =) left at about 5plus.

THANKS PER! -hugs-

im quite blurred. my heart and mind are totally messed up. they didnt switch places or something but there's something i dont understand. something i never will i suppose. is it just me? maybe so. -depressed-

thanks to those who've made my days the past year

2003-04-20T07:22:00.001-07:00

21st april. in about 2 hours time its my birthday! seriously, is it good to be turning 15? hmmm! i feel old. hahaha! anyhow, had a time of my life today. now, i slept pretty late last night but somehow i woke up at 7plus? bathed changed came online stoned and what have you until 9plus then i left for church. after mass, went to town! almost all of 'em couldnt hang out till late cos of their parents so yeah. but im sure looking forward to going out tomorow! y'noe what. cant wait for tomorrow! well correction. i cant wait till school ends tomorrow! whee! -smiles- thanks to all who've given me presents today and yesterday! thanks for the little party i had today. thanks for everything. i think i just freaked out. no i dont think, i did. i think i'll think twice before picking up phone calls now. cya people.

2003-04-19T09:15:00.000-07:00

[time after time *]
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Turning in circles confusion--
Is nothing new
Flashback to warm nights--
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories,
Time after--

Sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you have said--
And you say--go slow--
I've fallen behind--
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look--and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you--I will be waiting
Time after time
Time after time

After your picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows--i'm wondering
If your OK
And you say go slow
I've fallen behind--
The drum beats out of time--

If you're lost you can look--and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you--I will be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
Time after...time.

today was fun. super fun! i woke up at 10plus cos i slept at 4plus. =) came online, chatted and messaged till about 1 then i had a quick lunch and went for choir. walked to my cousin's house at about 5. well today my cousins were supposed to come over to sorta 'celebrate' my birthday but i thought only two of 'em would come cos the rest didnt mention anything about coming over and stuff? anyway as it turned out, lotsa 'em came over and we had lotsa fun. wanna know more, just ask me. hahaha! alright, dah! oh btw, joseph! i never knew i had the same birthday as you! hahahha! amazing. alright then, takkaire and cya people. eh, do you know i really miss talking to ~~YOU~~. and im not being retarded or anything its just that. ah nevermind. will see you around then. nights.

2003-04-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

dont read this entry if you dont wanna die of boredom. only ONE person should read it.

Good Friday.

[heaven by your side *]
You and I, cannot hide,
The love we feel inside,
The words we need to say,
I feel that I, have always walked alone
but now that your here with me
there always be a place where I can go

Chorus

And suddenly our destiny has started to unfold,
When your next to me, I can see the greatest story love have every told,
Now my life is blessed with the love of an angel (how can it be true)
Somebody to keep the dream alive (the dream i found in you)
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me,
But when we touch, I realize, that I found my place in heaven by your side.

I could fly, when you smile
I'd walk a 1000 miles, to hear you call my name
now that I, have finally found the 1,
who will be there for me, eternaly
my everylasting sun.

Chorus

Heaven by your side (x3)
and when your next to me, I can see the greatest story love have every told,
Now my life is blessed by an angel (how can it be true)
Somebody to keep the dream alive (the dream i found in you)
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me,
But when we touch, I realize, that I found my place in heaven by your side.

and when your next to me, I can see the greatest story love have every told,
Now my life is blessed by an angel (heaven by your side)
Somebody to keep the dream alive (the dream i found in you)
I always thought that love would be the strangest thing to me,
But when we touch, I realize, that I found my place in heaven by your side.

Good Friday. a day of fasting and abstinence. there's more to that of course. anyhow, mass was good today. the sermon was interesting. okay at least i paid attention eh? -smiles- the hymns didnt leave deep impacts though. oh wait! there was one! it wasnt a hymn. it just goes like 'my people my people what've i done to you, how have i offended you, answer me.' i suppose it left a lasting impression cos of the one who sang it. =) i nearly forgot the lyrics there. hahaha! should i go for tomorrow's Easter vigil? or sunday's 1045 mass? hmmmm. help? can i go for both? no i dont think so. should i go out on sunday? damned! i have no idea! -confused- okay forget i asked. ah yes. lemme explain abit. this entry's dedicated to one particular person out there. hey, see the song above? not everything relates to you. hahaha! i just thought that song was really good cos it sorta expresses my thoughts and feelings towards you. urm. basically i just think when i'm with you or when i talk to you, heaven's by my side. which is why i told you i missed talking to you? yep! at least i spoke to you today. -smirk-. im gonna say this again. thanks a million for everything, absolutely everything. gotta treasure you cos such friends are hard to come by. alright, i gotta stop blogging already. cya'll takkaire!

2003-04-17T06:43:00.000-07:00

4 days to my birthday

Holy Thursday! accomplished quite abit today! well not exactly but i had fun both in school and at church =) for some english, some groups hadta present their projects urm.. oh yeah! hy's group did on pimples. huiying, jade, kiatteng and yinx. quite interesting! egg white actually helps! -shrugs- oh yeah jess's group did on teenage depression. that one sorta relates well to us i suppose. the whole depression thing got me thinking a little. as ive said before, our group's doing 'suicide'. per, char, clare, lee and myself. there're so many diff ways of committing suicide! hanging, wrist slashing, over dosage of medicine, poisoning, drowning and a couple more. surprisingly, none of the youths or the people who've committed suicide in singapore actually slashed their wrists. personally, i think dying while sleeping in the car is quite cool. not that its cool to commit suicide but i'd choose that over the rest. as usual, chinese lesson was pretty interesting. i learnt how to play games on my calculator! i think im really lagging but thanks to dinah, freda and jesmine i finally found out how to work the games on the calculator! you might be asking yourself how in the world did we play with our calculators during chinese. well our chinese teacher's pretty fun. he's super lame too. hahaha. so the day at school passed like that. then finally! outta school.

since there wasnt mass held in school, i decided to go attend the 630pm mass. mum consented, dad didnt. but when i asked him again, he said up to you. i asked a third time then he said okay go ahead. he even asked if i wanted dinner before going and if i needed my mum to pick me up after mass. -shrugs- hahaha! met ian and daniel on my way to church. there were ~~tons~~ of people in church! for the past few weeks, it was pretty pathetic cos i think it was cos of sars or something thats why people didnt bother going for mass. today, all the youths were there! well. not all. just the.. okay i dont know what to call 'em but if you went for mass at ihm today and if you're from ihm, you'll get what i mean. so anyway, walked to church with ian and daniel. when we stepped in, we saw erica and gerald. and gerald, DONT call me sylvie cos i aint a sylvie. hahahaha! please dont. to tell you honestly, i didnt like my sitting position today. i mean the two of 'em sitting nxt to me were talking their hearts out! on my right was some lady whom i dont know. when i say two of 'em i mean the one sitting on my left and the other one sitting nxt to him. seriously, if you were to talk/whisper during mass its fine but you dont talk throughout and super loudly! i think it got pretty bad. even the people sitting in front of us hadta turn around and tell 'em to keep quiet. besides that, it was pretty cool. quite funny actually. you should have seen.. okay nevermind i shant say what i wanna say. but yeah, it was fun. after mass i saw joe after weeks! said hi and blabla. saw mark ryan and who else? okay quite a few others. oh that reminds me, ive gotta go to church tomorrow too! Good Friday service. hahaha! kkae, takkaire nights! tho its still super early. =)

shoutouts!
[char*] - heys gurl! sorry, i didnt know you'd reach church so late! i suppose you attended mass elsewhere then went to ihm for adoration? well hope you had fun anyway. takkaire! cya in church tmr or at school on mon! =)
[gab*] - LOL. role model? hahaha! your shirt's so funny. anyway, peace and takkaire! go for her! you've my support! =) hahahaha! y'should know who im talking about.
[gerald*] - *ahem* no more sylvies okay? its via! change the 'e' to 'a' would you? thanks! hahahaha! i wanted to say hi but when u said hi sylvie, i changed my mind. LOL. nahhh kidding. hahaha! dude! hope y'had fun today? saw tonnes of ppl right. hahaha.. well maybe not tonnes, just.. alot? hahaha.. takkaire! cya tomorrow! -smiles-

YOU [the few who sat in the same row but to my far right and the people in front of em.] - PEACE! okay, said it just now but i think i only said to a few. so to all of you, peace! =) seriously, where i sat really sucked. and i think you guys made 'j' feel on the top of the world or something? LOL. he was quite pleased tht u ppl were sorta talking to him. ahahahaha! joke. alright, takkaire and see you people around! =)

2003-04-16T05:31:00.000-07:00

5days to my birthday!

school was really fun! =) to start the day, per took lee's book on suicide, titled 'too young to die' and started reading out the various suicidal notes in the book. as she was reading she was jumping around and sorta like acting the whole thing out. hahaha it was quite funny. oh yeah! Ms Jacob was telling us 'bout the guy who was a prisoner in Changi who sorta like stalked her. having her as a form teacher's pretty cool. getta hear stories and stuff. and then during chinese, per was saying something aboout us being fishes in the pond cos the class is quite empty when the hc girls go to the other class for chinese. and our chinese teacher heard it as FISH PRAWNS instead of fish POND. so it became super hilarious. we were playing around with three words in particular. pond prawns and porn. pearlyn the porn star became pearlyn the prawn star! =) hahaha! school ended.

i wonder how some people can just play you out at the last minute. okay not some people just this particular one. yesterday i asked if she was going for tuition today and she said yes. so when my mum asked if i wanted her to pick me up today i said no need cos i'd be going for lunch with that girl before going for tuition. guess what. this morning i asked if she was going, she said no. i asked why and she said cos she's tired. what the *? see the big WHATEVER across my face? ohhh yeah and the past few weeks she didnt go cos she said her mum said sars. -no comments-. basically she just goes as and when she wants to and not go as and when she doesnt. well sure there's nothing wrong with that cos its her own tuition stuff but think my tuition teacher got pretty ticked off. she told me to tell her not to come anymore if thats the case. well i went for tuition anyway and it wasnt super boring or anything. deborah's super smart though! okay yeah triple science, can tell.

whats the real meaning of love? some people say, true love means even if the person you love is happier with another person than yourself, you should be happy. yeah sure, many people just tell you that but deep down inside, is it so simple? just letting the one you love go? okay, dont ask me why im talking about this cos it just came to my mind. -shrugs- to me, a human's mind doesnt work that way. unless you're someone really so magnanimous. alright, so much for the crap talk. to those who're sick, take care! drink lotsa water! actually i only know one or two who're sick now. especially to that ONE person, -hugs- take care of yourself alright? i know its totally ironic but dont think too much especially since you're sick! one last thing, thanks for everything.

2003-04-15T08:14:00.000-07:00

evening! no wait. now its night? today was a really LONG day. kinda drained if you ask me. stayed in school till 230! was trying to complete the physics experiment thing. when it was finally over, per char and myself were walking outta school deciding what colour mounting board to buy for our 'committing suicide' project and stuff. but then! per 'flew' off and got a lift from wyn. hahaha! -shrugs- good thing we'll be presenting on thurs and not tomorrow anyway. aha! committing suicide. well that's our topic for the english bulletin thing. =) not bad eh? hahaha well we couldnt think of any others besides homosexuals and what not but those topics were suppoesdly 'unexceptable'. i guess both you and i know why? -smiles- oh right! stupid msn just signed me out. damned. so yeah by the time i got home it was about 4 or was it 4plus? well it was around there i guess. got home, came online, started chatting. then dearest per reminded me that we've gotta hand in either a sars or war poem tomorrow! so i started. seriously, didnt have any inspirational juices flowing today, at least i got the first line written. so it went on and on. per and myself made a joke out of the whole thing! 'the hospital is just a phone call away, dont act smart and go there on your own and pass away'. well it was something like that. and we wanted the last words to rhyme! so that just came out? -shrugs- i got that done! BUT. ive got other homework that's not done. heh. slowly yeah? a step at a time. think its getting late. shall spend the last few hours chatting. sounds like im gonna die okay touchwood. hahaha! but you should get what im saying. today was definitely fun. of course when i got home there were some unpleasant stuff going online but now its okay i suppose. -shrugs- alright, i should stop blogging now. cya people! cherio!

2003-04-14T06:48:00.000-07:00

first day of school! well okay maybe its not the FIRST day of school but you get what i mean yeah? okay. seriously, school wasn't as bad as i thought it would be! =) it was quite fun in fact. In the morning after we had discussed all the sars and what not, our form teacher told us about her encounters with the spooked. anyhow there're good ones too! and it isn't that scary after all. well of courser there ARE scary ones but drop that. the nice ones are really very nice! hahahaha.. alright, i shant go on and on about 'em. today's been a great day! oh wait. maybe not that great. cos over dinner, my parents were talking about handphone bills. like wth, mine dropped like hell and they were comparing with some p4 kid's handphone bills. i mean seriously, she's p4 and to have a handphone when you're at that pathetic age is good enough so wtf stop comparing for the love of Christ. she's p4! what the heck do you expect? no offence but maybe she doesnt know how to message or something. so yeah fine her bills are less than 30bucks. and so? big deal eh? im not saying my hp bills are super low but dont compare me with some p4 kid! and she's gotta 7210. so? urgh! keep comparing and i'll keep comparing too. sheesh! good thing after eating i went straight to my room if not i'll just die i tell you. parents - the comparing ‘royalty’. Basically everything I do is not enough. Maybe it isn’t but still?! Dahhhh! –exasperated- and my absolutely wonderful parents are always ganging up against me. damned. age difference i suppose? anyway, i gtg now. takkaire and God bless.

7 days to my birthday

2003-04-11T08:08:00.000-07:00

-yawn- its friday! friday! heard that?! FRIDAY! great. school's starting on monday, that leaves me 2 days to complete everything. okay it doesnt seem like im gonna complete anything anyway. =) in fact, now im playing daidee with russ, char and zul. and im trying to teach zul. hahaha! zuliee! first round, why'd you put your dee so fast?! yikes! you should have kept it! now you've got nothing to sorta 'help' you! dah. nevermind. hahaha.. anyhow, char has 1 card left. ive got 3. russ has 8. and zuliee has 7! hahaa! russ! 'add oil'! haha!

zuliee: losing jst spurns u on to greater heights
zuliee: dnt give up, ppl!
rusz...: haha. hell no
[syl *]: wow..
zuliee: we'll beat the so called infallible rhythmic gym goddes this time..

ahahaha! pathetic. why? cos he didnt put his biggest card! char won. hahaha.. russ has four 2s this time! -slaps you- anyhow, today has been a very boooooooring day. as usual, i accomplished nothing. only completed my elit (march hols hw!). not bad right? hahaha! my eyes are like super puffy. not cos i cried but cos i think i didnt get enough sleep. oh well. ahahha russ. -pats you on the head- four 2s but char got dc. awwww. anyhow, the thought of going back to school is dreadful. i cant imagine waking up so early! -sigh- no choice. urgh! -slaps myself- i cant stand it. i havent touched my homework! nevermind. getting paranoid. should i just start now? but i cant! eeps! hell. nevermind, i'll get back to chatting. homework... i'll think about it later =)

ilu![y'noe who y'are *]

2003-04-10T20:53:00.000-07:00

its already a friday and ive not done my homework! -sigh- its just me i suppose. oh well.. better get some done. the important ones at least. had lotsa fun yesterday. played badminton at the charlton cc with about 10 or less peeps. but now, my arms and legs are aching. dah! but it was fun! played 3 vs 3. that one was super corny. hahaha! right? -smiles- oh yeah! last night went to church for penitential service, there were loads of people! seemed as though it was christmas' midnight mass or something. -shrugs- it was fun though. anyhow i think im starting to wake up later as the days pass. eeps! thats bad. cant imagine whats gonna happen on monday. probably wake up at 10? hahaha and miss the first half of the day in school. yep, not bad. =) im gonna be home the whole of today. slacking, stoning. no wait. i should get some homework done. well thats what i always say but i always end up chatting or something. typical. at the rate im going, i think im gonna fail midyear or something. its 1208 but im still in a stoning mood. yeah im awake but i cant help it. im staring blankly at the screen. hahahaha. cornified me. oh well. -laughs- i do sound like im a nutcase or something. hahaha! have fun y'all! takkaire God bless! -yawn-

inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be loved by someone who really cares. When a person is loved, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.

10 days to my birthday

2003-04-10T07:39:00.000-07:00

[heaven by your side *]
You and I, cannot hide
The love we feel inside
The words we need to say
I feel that I
Have always walked alone
But now that you're here with me
There'll always be a place that I can go
Suddenly our destiny
Has started to unfold
When you're next to me
I can see the greatest story
Love has ever told
Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel
How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you
I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise
That I found my place in heaven by your side
I could fly, when you smile
I'd walk a thousand miles to hear you
Call my name
Now that I have finally found the
one who will be there for me eternally
My everlasting sun
Suddenly our destiny has started
to unfold
When you're next to me I can
See the greatest story love has ever
told
Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel
How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you
I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side
That I found my place in heaven by
your side
Heaven by your side, heaven by
your side, heaven by your side
When you're next to me, I can see
The greatest story love has ever told
Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel
How can it be true?
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you
I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side
Now my life is blessed with
The love of an angel
Heaven by your side
Somebody to keep the dream alive
The dream I found in you
I always thought that love would be
The strangest thing to me
But when we touch, I realise that I
Found my place in heaven by your side

thursday night. and i still have not touched my homework. today has been a crazy day. dont ask me why cos its a really really long story. all im saying is - i think i screwed up real bad. ive nothing to say tonight. speechless. i guess im just feeling down. any particular reason? i dont know. anyhow, 11days to my birthday.

emotional wreck

2003-04-09T19:21:00.000-07:00

[do you remember *]
Ohhhohhhh Yeah
Ooooh
Oohohh

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I think baby I know
What's on your mind
Cuz you look like you've
Got something to say, yeah

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked a question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

Remember we used to laugh and say
No one understood our way
And there were times
When you would cry
while knocking
On my door
And I was there
To shelter your pain, oh

I feel you baby
Get that off your mind
Make it to
A brighter day

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way, yeah, ohhh

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

The answer girl
Lies within your heart
Please take a look inside

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

thursday. school's starting in a few days time and ive not touched my homework. why do the teachers hafta give us like truckloads of homework? it totally ruins our hols. for those who've completed their homework, well and good cos i think thats amazing. i for one have not started on anything yet! and later im gonna play badminton then later in the evening going to church for penitential service. whats gonna happen to all the hw? oh wait! if i gotta go for penitential service tonight, whats gonna happen! im gonna miss the American Idols? yikes! ahhh nevermind. oh by the way, the song above is sung by Aaron Carter. its quite nice, check it out. the mtv's cool. yep. -stretches- slept for 6 hours last night. really awake now. =) anyway, takkaire and have fun! loveyall esp God sent! =))

2003-04-09T00:30:00.000-07:00

quiz-alore

Which Disney Princess Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you ask me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
our love as far as I can see
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know is true
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you

Who's Your Btvs Match?

this quiz was made by Erin

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie

Which Plant Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

Which dog breed are you?

this quiz was made by Erin

It's a place I've never been
And it comes from deep within
And it's telling me that I'm about to win first prize
Knowing all I have to do
Is reach out my hand to you
Anytime I want to look into your Spanish eyes

Which Stupid Stereotype Are You?

this quiz was made by Erin

Show me a reason, give me a sign
Tell me the way we fall out of line
Is it today or is it tonight we’ll find
The answer to our life

Who's Your Btvs/Angel Sweetheart?

this quiz was made by Erin

[how did i fall in love with you *]
Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understood we'd never be alone
Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus
What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

Chorus

Oh, I wanna say this right,
and it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this lie
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

Chorus

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew...
How did I fall in love with you?

2003-04-08T19:30:00.000-07:00

morning! woke up at about 8. last night, it was really a miracle. i slept at 4plus, was watching soccer but then i guess i hadta sleep since i slept for a pathetic 3 hours the day before. so yeah, i slept for another 3 hours again. anyway, real madrid won! -beams- seriously, i wanted manchester united to win but i asked my neighbour who he thought would win and he said real cos its their homeground. so thanks alot for that tip. i made one other bet, lunch treat, i took man u but the guy called the bet off. -shrugs-damn. im in sucha stoning mood. im really tired. look at the time - 1021. ive got tuition at 11 and ive not bathed, changed, nothing. -sigh- i dont know. i suppose i should get going eh? yep, cya takkaire people. btw, happy birthday michelle. =)

You Know Who You Are
i dont wanna lose you. i dont wanna try losing you. this whole thing just freaks me out. if i do, the world's gonna close up on me and im gonna die. thanks for everything, everything you said or will say will mean alot to me. every single word. ilu.

12 days to my birthday

2003-04-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

[one last song *]
Take my hand, touch my face
Let me feel your embrace
Let me see in your eyes
That you won’t say goodbye
Just tell me how you feel
I don’t know what you’re thinking anymore

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song

Let me ask time has passed
Do you feel this could last
If you don’t, why then stay
Take your wings, fly away
I love you way too much
To wanna be the one who brings you down

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song

One last song I sing for you
Like I always did
This time it’s for real
I never come to you like this
Expecting you to turn my kiss
Oh no no no no no

And if you need me, you’d kiss me
Then tell me how you feel
And if you want me, you’d show me
That your love is for real
And if you love me
You’d hold me in your arms where I belong
So while I’m feeling strong
I sing you one last song
Oh yeah
I sing you one last song
I sing you one last song

whats up with singapore? whats up with the whole fucking world we live in? whats this world coming to? an end? hopefully the sars kills me. homework homework homework. not to mention the fact that there's a whole stack of homework waiting for me to do and i dont know where to start! sars - killer. maybe if there weren't sars, life would have been better. epebble.net just kills me. look at the amount of homework we've got to do people! stnicks. urgh! okay maybe its just me. im not cut out for homework. but i suppose we all dont have a choice. the life of a student - homework. went back to school this morning, got my mum to send me there. *heaves a sigh of relief* i've got my pencil case back. but thats not the main point. wadssup with homework!! -faints- stress! i can literally rip every strand of hair off my head. urgh!! im gonna die from this. stress. does it kill you? hope it does. such an irony. in one of the previous entries, i said that i hope God doesnt take my life away so quickly. well now, i say please do. please take me away from this miserable world we live in. when's the world coming to an end?? can it be tomorrow? i need a life. why cant this world be a lovely place to live in, with no homework, no war, no diseases.. just us. yeah, i think im going bonkers. anyway, thanks charlotte for telling me there's english homework. if not i think i'll just die when school reopens. actually, its not just the amount of homework that's killing me. everything is. good thing i pretty much had fun today. played badminton. but i cant imagine what's gonna happen to me tomorrow onwards. i can't just sit here and do homework, i'll die! but if i dont, i'll prolly get screwed. i think life's a torture. nothing's going right. and it hurts. it feels as if someone just ripped me apart. why? why? why? -cries- life's unfair. to put it simply, life's a bitch. to tell you the truth, there's no point living. maybe there are some people out there worth living for but im sure they'll survive without me around. i aint gonna kill myself or anything. im just in a state of confusion. maybe i should get someone to pour a bucket of ice water over me or something. dah! sucks! school doesnt suck. its the homework given that does! i conclude, life sucks. -dies-

2003-04-07T19:37:00.000-07:00

[moments like this *]
What a dying world re-defines, the reasons we strive to exist
Refrain control and we're bound to learn the meaning of moments like this
Cuz in the peaceful lull, the quiet ..
Seduced by the promise of bliss, we soon forget that nothing's happened yet
We're living for moments like this

So hold me, whisper gently this is what we live for, how we learn who we are
It defines us, ever reminding us that life never is more precious than this

From the dim light in the greyness, the aim of the soul tends to miss
then the clouds catch fire and the oceans pitch
we're made for the moments like this

So hold me, whisper gently that there's nothing to fear
You'll always be near, to remind me, to stand behind me
Although life can be rough we can never give up

It's in our power to face the storm with all its fury and madness
The flash of thunder will be harnessed with the longing and sadness
The clouds will grey.

Hold me. Whisper gently this is what we live for, how we learn how we are
It defines us, ever reminding us that life never is more precious than this
Hold me. Whisper gently that there's nothing to fear,
You'll alway's be near, to remind me, stand behind me
Although life can be rough we can never give up.

MORNING! =) just got back from school.-yawn- im kinda tired actually. slept at 5, woke up at 8 to ask my mum to send me to school to take some stuff. and my pencil case was still there!! hahaha! anyway, i think im gonna sleep really early tonight. if you still see me online at 12plus, i think its a miracle. furthermore, i think im gonna play badminton. not sure what time though. oh! i just remembered! ive got tuition at 230. eeeeeeeeeeeeks! ruined my day. ah heck. dont care. alright, takkaire and have fun! i might blog later too. depends. yep². in the meantime, chill out.

God sent! you know who you are cos i told you that you were God sent. =) thanks a million. -hugs- somehow you're always there when i need someone to turn to and im really thankful for that. there's this song called angel (was up on my blog in one of the entries), the chorus was something like 'God sent me an angel from the heavens above'. well i suppose you're not really an angel who flew down from heaven all of a sudden. but you're definitely God sent. to me, you're an angel. i wouldnt say perfect because no one's perfect but you're definitely a really good friend. the best in fact. thanks for everything. love you tons.

13 days to my birthday

2003-04-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

You Are A Saxaphone!

Which Musical Instrument Are You?
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the picture above - sweet isnt it? everyone of us is a gift from God no matter what race or religion you belong to. so if you're prejudiced against someone because of their religion or race, get a life. no matter what happens to you at some point of time in your life, life has to go on.
i had a dream last night. i think it was more of a nightmare than a dream. anyway, it was really stupid but i got 'slapped' in a way. what if one day your parents pass away? i aint cursing or anything, im just posting a question. in fact, to tell you the truth, i admire people our age who've lost either of their parents due to some disease or accident, and are still getting on with life. seriously, i dont know how or what's gonna happen to me if my parents go. to pick yourself up and get on with life definitely isn't easy. like my dad for instance. yeah sure, his mum (my grandmother) passed away about two years back and he still has to move on. its not easy. someone who's so dear to you, who's painstakingly brought you up. before you can actually thank him/her, they pass away. -sigh-
lets just put it in a way that it relates to us - teenagers. maybe this time, its not so serious. friends for example. what if one day you wake up and realise your friend just suddenly decides that you suck? or what if they meet with an accident or something. what if i meet with an accident, lapse into a coma and not wake up again. ive got loads of people to thank. people who've been there for me at any point of time in my life. i can only hope and pray that God doesnt take my life away so quickly because i've not enjoyed life enough. all i'm saying is.. we should treasure what we have and the people we have as our friends. thts basically it.
okay im really sorry. i think the whole SARS incident is getting into me. its all happening so quickly! people being told they've got sars, get admitted into hospital, and a couple of days later - DIE. freaky isnt it? what can i say. if its time to go, its time to go. thats abt it i suppose. nights to all.

2003-04-06T06:40:00.000-07:00

What Pattern Are You?

I feel my wings have broken in your hands,
I feel the words unspoken inside...
And they pull you under,
And I will give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams are fallin’ down,
Crawlin’ around and around and around...

Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I don’t care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
C’mon, I’ve been waiting for you

I see the world has folded in your heart,
I feel the waves crash down inside,
And they pull me under,
And, I would give you anything you want, oh
You are all I wanted,
All my dreams have fallen down,
Crawling around and around and around...

Somebody save me,
Let your warm hands break right through it,
Somebody save me,
I don’t care how you do it, just
Stay, stay
C’mon, I’ve been waiting for you,

All my dreams are on the ground,
Crawling around and around and around...

Somebody saave me,
Let your warm hands break right through,
Somebody saave me,
I don’t care how you do it,
Just stay (stay with me)
I made this whole world shine for you...
Just stay, stay
C'mon, I’m still waiting for you

-yawn- just bathed. and its freezing here. aircon's been turned on since noon! =x anyway, sang for 1045 mass this morning, had practice after mass. got super duper hungry so had lunch immediately once i got home. hahaha! sound like a glutton but i was really famished! had piano - was darn boring. nearly fell asleep on the piano! good thing it was over quick enough. anyhow, went to play badminton. and it rained buckets! sickening! oh but we had a really good game. am i right? =) -looks at you- hahaha! y'noe who you are lah. LOLL.. kae, to all out there - loveyall tons! takkaire sweet dreams.

2003-04-05T06:36:00.000-08:00

[this i promise you *]
When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you, are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength, I'll give you hope
keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call, was standing here all along

chorus:
And I will take, you in my arms, and hold you right where you belong
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever, and lifetimes before
And I promise you never, will you hurt anymore
I give you my word, I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow forever has now begun

Just close your eyes, each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away, nooo
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall, when I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

Chorus:
And I will take, (I will take you in my arms), you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you babe

Just close your eyes, each loving day(each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away, (no)
Every word I say is true, this I promise you

Every word I say is true, this I promise you

Ooooooooh I promise you

today was okay i suppose. took some photos cos gk wanted to use up all the film left in the camera cos she hadta develop the 'parts of her school' photos to do a project or something. anyway, i think the picture i put up there's quite nice right? oh yeah. to all who're new, my tagboard's below. something wrong with the alignments! so heck! LOL. alright, gotta stop blogging now, if not there'll be no end! nights and sweet dreams people! loveyall =)

16 days to my birthday

2003-04-04T06:56:00.000-08:00

[cradle *]
I will rock you like a baby, Lover,
Cradled in my arms,
I will keep you safe from danger,
Shelter you from harm...
There will never be another lover,
Who treats you like I do,
We can drift into forever,
On a love that’s made for two...

Don’t you ever say this loves not special,
Don’t you ever think its not essential...Baby...

I was only thinking of you,
Hoping you were thinking of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Against the world... Baby...
I am always dreaming of you,
Hoping you are dreaming of me,
I could never live,
One day without your love...

I will kiss you like an angel, baby,
Cradled in my wings,
I will take you up to heaven,
Show you precious things...
If you promise that you love me,
If you promise that you care,
I will be here for you always,
And forever this I swear...

Don’t you ever say this loves not special,
Don’t you ever think its not essential baby...

I was only thinking of you,
Hoping you were thinking of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Against the world... Baby...
I am always dreaming of you,
Hoping you are dreaming of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...

Though you say you want a love,
But you don’t think you believe it,
Just open up your heart,
And you know you will receive it...
Oh baby... Baby...

Don’t you ever say this loves not special, no
Don’t you ever think its not essential baby...

I was only thinking of you,
Hoping you were thinking of me,
Two hearts beating just like one,
Against the world... Baby...
I am only dreaming of you,
Hoping you are dreaming of me,
I could never live one day,
Without your love...

whee! went to play badminton in the morn, walked past the ss court, saw lotsa people playing. well.. not lots, just the usual few. seriously, can someone tell me when school's starting? ive got my elit h/w left - since march hols mind you! =x oh well, nevermind. there was a thunderstorm today! power tripped thrice! *sheesh* good thing i wasnt blogging then if not i'd have just died! i'll leave you guys with a couple of shoutouts! =)

SHOUTOUTS

neighbour thanks for coming online =) i was like super hyper and the stupid -waves- thing. hahaha! sorry, im kinda retarded tonight but yeah! had tons of fun chatting with you - as usual. oh yeah, take care of your foot! as i said.. it might rot no wait spoil. LOL. whichever you want it to be. too bad your sis wanted to use the comp. oh well, just dont play with slippers tomorrow i suppose? people arent injured and play with shoes, ure injured and play with slippers. not bad. hahahaha alright, will cya online sometime soon yeah? -waves bye- [nutcase]

ss ey! ur bod's really good. LOL. sorry, im a total nut today. anyway, hope u had fun yeah? will join u guys some other time i suppose. hows ur cramps? hope its gone yars? -hugs- whee! takkaire enjoy this pathetic hols.

joe dude! havent talked to you in a long while. anyway, takkaire have fun.

callie sis! =) great to cya cheering up. way to go gurl! -smiles-

2003-04-03T17:56:00.000-08:00

Balanced. You accept your emotions as normal and
are not overly happy nor depressed. You are
emotionally balanced and should find peace in
the way you deal with life situations. Your
emotions are normal and well understood. You
see the light in the dark.

How Emotional Are You?
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[last goodbye *]
Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Everybody here is sleeping tight
Ain't nobody gonna find us here, we'll disappear
There's a dancer in the arms of love
And he's dancing on the sky above
And the truth is that we'll never know, where love will flow

Aim high, shoot low (you gotta aim high and shoot low baby)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
'Cause we couldn't seem to find a way for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

Is it cloudy where you are tonight
Are the neon lights shining bright
Are you looking for a place too stay, to get away
And the days are horses down the hill
Running fast with no time to kill
And the truth is that we'll never know, where love will flow

Aim high, shoot low (you gotta aim high and shoot low baby)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right
'Cause we couldn't seem to find a way for love to stay
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live
But you never gonna see me cry the last goodbye(last goodbye)

If I could do it over, I'll do it all again (over again)
And if I got one more chance, I wouldn't change a thing

Aim high, shoot low (aim high, shoot low)

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight (road tonight)
Ain't nobody here to make it right (make it right, oooh)
'Cause we couldn't seem to find a way for love to stay (love)
If you had another night to give
I would have another night to live (night to live)
But you never gonna see me cry the last goodbye

Ain't no headlights on the road tonight
Ain't nobody here to make it right (make it right)
'Cause we couldn't seem (ooh) to find a way for love to stay (stay)(ooh)
If you had another night to give (give)
I would have another night to live (night to live)
But you never gonna see me cry the last goodbye!

heys! yikes! didnt blog last night. mum wanted to use the net - and i fell asleep whilst waiting for her to finish doing whtever she was doing. oh well. anyway, last night's american idol (ami) was really cool! i sure thought trenyce and carmen were good enough. how did america actually vote?! yikes. but for me its ROOOOOOOOOben and clay all the way! kimberly and the girls, all not bad. =) and i downloaded 'God bless the USA' last night. hahaha! well i thought it was really nice. LOL. played badminton yesterday. when we went to the provision shop to go get drinks, there were two dogs. one's a collie another one's some black small puny thing. i used to be really really scared of 'em. but somehow, i just got over it. as long as they dont come licking me, im fine. hahaha! lets see.. whts up for me today? hmmm.. badminton? stone? h/w? LOL. kae, i think homework's TOTALLY outta point. i kept asking everyone when school was supposedly gonna reopen if not i aint gonna get down to my h/w! shitz! and no one knew. yikes. sucks right. urgh yucks. kae! i think i should go out. really bored. cya! have fun people!

2003-04-02T17:54:00.000-08:00

You are orange. You are emotional. Outside, you are bitter and stubborn, inside you are hopeful, hoping someone will come save you from the bitterness of your own mind. You constantly feel the need to prove yourself, and you look up to those who can make thier dreams happen. You are broken, but not beyond repair like maroon.

What inner color are you?

[angel *]
It's been five months
since you went away
Left without a word,
nothing to say (nothin to say)
When I was the one,
who gave you my heart and soul,
but it wasn't good enough for you
No..Ohhh
So I asked God

Chorus:

God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry (is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes

And I know I might sound crazy,
but after all that I still loved you.
You wanna come back in my life,
but now theres somethin I have to do.
I have to tell the one that I once adored,
that he cant have my love no more,
My heart cant take no more lies,
and my eyes are all out of cries
soooo......God

repeat chorus:

Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please
to send you back to me
I couldnt eat
I couldnt sleep
even made me feel like I could not breathe
one night all I wanted to do
was feel your touch
and to give you all of my love
but you took my love for granted
want my lovin now
but you cant have it
ohhhhh God!

repeat chorus

Ohhhh God!

Send me an Angel (send me an angel)
An Angel!
Wipe the tears from my eyes
God send me an Angel from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel (to heal my broken heart)
God send me an Angel
from being in love
send me (an Angel)
ohh God!
send me an Angel
send me (an Angel)
(an Angel)

tht song's lovely. absolutely amazing. yep²! morning to all! doubt many are awake anyway. chill out, have fun!

18 days to my birthday! =)

2003-04-02T06:57:00.000-08:00

Which house do YOU belong in?

[stop living the lie *]
He sits alone in a table in a small cafe
Drowning his tears in a bottomless cup of coffee
And he's tumblin into his thoughts
His memories are all tied in knots
Who is going to save him
No one wants to know him

She stands alone in a place where no one knows her name
She catches them starin and they turn round and finish the frame
And shes nursing her head in her pride
She died long ago deep down inside
Who is going to save her
No one wants to know her

(CHORUS)
I can't believe that you pull on a sleeve when you cry (when you cry)
You'll stick in the knife then give the kiss of life
Live the lie(live the lie)
We all have a saviour
Do yourself a favour
Stop living the lie

He sits alone and looks up to the eyes of an angel
She catches him starin and smiles the smile of an angel
And she asks him if this chair is free
He says yes will you sit here with me
No one would have saved them
We should all learn from them

(CHORUS)
I can't believe that you pull on a sleeve when you cry (when you cry)
You'll stick in the knife then give the kiss of life
Live the lie (live the lie)
We all have a saviour
Do yourself a favour
Stop living the lie
Lie
The lie
Stop living the lie

gd evening to all! well, its not exactly evening, isit? but i cant say gdnight either cos it'll sound as if im gonna sleep! so gd -whtever y'll wanna take it as- hahaha! shitz! do y'noe i typed this whole long entry out just now and when i clicked post & publish, *poof* all gone! shitz! oh well, nevermind. today was a quite hyper-ish day for me. was out at ten am i think or a li'l later? yep², around there. anw, ive got a stupid stupid maid. well she's not stupid stupid she's just.. stupid! urgh! i dont make sense. well this is it. two days back, she complained 'bout having stomach cramps. fair enough, mum took her to the docs - time of the month. yesterday she told my mum she wanted to go back cos she didnt wanna die in singapore. helloooo? you dont DIE having stomach cramps! stoooooooooooooooopid! mum and aunt sent her to the agent yday. and today, she said she wants to come back and work cos the stomach cramps have gone. like wht? if she got sent back to Indonesia yday and realise she doesnt have stomach cramps anymore their gonna hafta pay for her airfare back again?! retarded! so anyway, i was home alone in the afternoon cos parents went to the agency. before they left, mum told me to lock up before going for tuition. now here's the best part. wht time's tuition?! =x good thing i had my neighbour online. see..

{ kisses* ..: shitz! parents went out. i dont even remember wht
time's tuition..
gomez: huh???
gomez: you don't know?
gomez: hahahaha
{ kisses* ..: everytime i go there and ask, when i step
out i forget
gomez: 4pm lah
gomez: i think
gomez: where is the tuition?
{ kisses* ..: her house.. uhhh.. jalan teliti.. opp the
superbowl there..
gomez: oh ya....
gomez: eugene and joe followed you there b4 right?
{ kisses* ..: yep! and you were sleeping. hahahha!
gomez: really?
{ kisses* ..: yep! cos i called.. think they wanted you to
go out and meet 'em, remember?
gomez: ya something like that
{ kisses* ..: then you still say 'really'
{ kisses* ..: hahahah
gomez: huh?
gomez: really?
{ kisses* ..: -_-" yes.
gomez: what kind of "really'?
{ kisses* ..: { kisses* } [love]- the irresistable
desire to be irresistibly desired says:
yep! and you were sleeping. hahahha!
gomez says:
really?
{ kisses* ..: tht kind of really. hahaha! cartoon. got wht
kind of 'really' ah? nvr heard of.
gomez: hahahha
gomez: so many types of really what
{ kisses* ..: okay.. got the really as in question kinda
really.. got really! as in.. really really? hahahh
{ kisses* ..: okay. stop talking about 'really'.
gomez: now i'm confused
gomez: kkz
gomez: so you're leaving at 3?
gomez: need 1 hr to reach there?!
{ kisses* ..: i think so. hahaha! see right.. if i say im
leaving at 3, i'll prolly leave at 330.. hahaha.. rather
than say leave at 330 then leave at 4!
gomez: k you're mad
{ kisses* ..: ey! really 4 ah?
gomez: i don't know
gomez: it's either 3.30 or 4
{ kisses* ..: which one is more likely?
gomez: don't know lehz
{ kisses* ..: you said 4 at first right? okay, 4 then.
gomez: got one time you came back at 530+
gomez: so i'm wondering whether it is 3.30
{ kisses* ..: ey.. then should be 4.. i think.. the time i
came back at 530, did i walk home? hahahah! man this is
stupid.. i sound like an idiot.. but yeah
gomez: i can't remember if you walked
gomez: haiya i don't know
gomez: hahahaha
{ kisses* ..: heck lah. 4 then 4. LOL.

see how stupid i can get? well i seriously couldnt remember. and i always forget tht particular tuition time! eeks! oh well.. im gonna leave you guys with a few shoutouts.. wont be staying online late tonight cos my gd friend's not gonna be home which means wont be online either! sad. nevermind. tas people! loveyall.

[neighbour *] - heys! thanks a mil for today's tuition reminder. -hugs- anw, have fun at ur stayover! thought could cya online. LOL. oh well, its okay. tomorrow as usual. cya!

[bud *] - ey! thanks for everything. oh shitz! im supposed to call you! i forgot! wait, gonna call now. cya!

[gab *] - dude! step 1 to 10. not bad right? hahahaha! kae, have fun playing ur guitar yars? whee! =)

2003-04-01T16:44:00.000-08:00

Which Avril Lavigne Song Are You?

[you are my everything *]
i've been thinking of a way to phrase it
seem to never find the words to say it
but it's true to say
i've been occupied by other things (i've been occupied by other things)
how could i think that you wouldn't notice (you wouldn't notice)
the absence of our closeness
realizing now
i will never let it happen again (again)

now i realize
that you are my everything
and without you here beside me
it's like an angel without it's wings
and now i realize (i realize)
that you are my everything
now i know it
should've shown it
and now i realize that you are my everything

as i sit here contemplating
'bout our love that's slowly fading
so insensitive
didn't hear you calling out for me...(didn't hear you calling out my name..)
if i could change the past i would do
everything to show i appreciate you
open up your heart
let me help you fall in love again
my friend, 'cause now i

now i realize
that you are my everything
and without you here beside me
it's like an angel without it's wings
(now i) and now i realize
that you are my everything
now i know it
should've shown it
and now i realize
that you are my everything

now i realize
that you are my everything
and without you here beside me
it's like an angel without it's wings (like an angel without it's wings)
(and now) and now i realize
that you are my everything (you are everything)
now i know it (now i know it)
shouldve shown it (should've shown it)
and now i realize that you are my everything

now i realize
that you are my everything
(life without you here beside me) and like an angel without it's wings
(oh can't you see that i apologize)
and now i realize that you are my everything
now i know it
should've shown it (your the air that i breathe)
and now i realize (the spirit that lives in my soul)
that you are my everything

morning people! -grins- still early, no one's online. yay! my blogger's finally working. oh well.. yesterday it wasnt! some april fool's joke? -shrugs- to all of you out there, have a great day today yah? =)

{char*} - loveya loads gurl =) takkaire!

{tweenie *} - blogger's working!! hahahaha! love you lotsssss...

{calx *} - cheer up sis, dont be so sad yar? loveya! -hugs-

{gk *} - chill out! *sings* life's great life's so beautiful. *stops* have fun gurl! loveya.

{neighbour *} - neighbour!! =) woke up already nots? forever sleeping -shakes head- hahahaha nah, just kidding kae. ey, have fun! y're gonna start school soon right. good luck!

{bud *} - heys! thanks for everything! oh yeah, reply my letter? hee =)

2003-03-31T19:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY

You'd shoot them

How would you kill someone
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[dont wanna lose you now *]
I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you, baby
Girl if only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And I, I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care

CHORUS
Don't wanna lose you now
Baby, I know we can win this
Don't wanna lose you now
No no, or ever again

I've got this feeling you're not gonna stay
It's burning within me
The fear of losing
Of slipping away
It just keeps getting closer, baby
Whatever reason to leave that I've had
My place was always beside you
And I wish that I didn't need you so bad
Your face just won't go away

CHORUS - repeat

I never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control this
Never thought that I'd be left behind
That I was stronger than you
Don't want to lose to loneliness
Girl I know we can win
Don't want to lose to emptiness, oh no
Never again

CHORUS - repeat

i need to kill someone. anyone. i dont just want to kill someone i need to kill someone. -stressed- tweenie i love you to bits gurl. thanks. i need a screwdriver, unscrew my mind then someone can either screw it back for me or just leave me to die.. im fine with anything. some freaking april fool's day indeed. will someone save me from this plight. maybe im nuts. urgh! nothing i say can describe how im feeling now. wanted to go out to talk to ________ but my maid's screwed up and she's complaining and shit! urgh! bitch. screw it. get the fucking hell outta this house and let me lock all the doors and windows and yell. and i mean YELL. forget it, ive given up... -died-

2003-03-31T07:36:00.000-08:00

Stoner Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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today's screwed up. is screwing up - however you wanna put it. -sobs- i just dont know what to say now. im at a loss for words. maybe the world is coming to an end after all.

2003-03-30T18:00:00.000-08:00

Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.

*this quiz was made by href="http://www.uinmind.com/sara">Sara

What color do you see the world in?
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[make me wanna *]
You know you make me wanna...
You know you make me wanna...

To start it off i know you know me,
to come to think of it, it was only last week
that i had a dream about us, oh
thats why im here, im writing this song
to tell the truth you know ive been hurting all along,
someway let me know, you want me girl,

everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man and you're the queen,
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need,
baby thats why...

Chorus
You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
You make me wanna love,
you make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul
I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,
you're the first and last thing on my mind
You make me wanna love
You make me wanna fall,
You make me wanna surrender my soul

Well i know that these feelings wont end now
they'll just get stronger if i see you again
Baby im tired of being friends
I wanna know if you feel the same,
and could you tell me do you feel my pain?
Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?
i feel like im a poor man an youre the queen
oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need
baby thats why...

Chorus

I'll take you home real quick
sit you down on the couch
pour some Dom Perignon and hit the lights out,
Baby we can make sweet love,
then we'll take it nice and slow
Gonna touch you like youve never known before
we're gonna make love ohhh
Chorus

-yawn- super sleepy. slept at 4. (looked at the clock, 355, then i fell asleep.)
at last! no more 'camping' needed! aircon repaired, comp reformatted. whee!
*rubs tummy* ummm im really hungry! oooh! my maid fried bread with egg!!
kkae. im eating now. eck! i think my room's gonna smell of food! ahahahah!
morning to all! *slaps all* wake up! hahaha! dont sleep anymore! not good i
think. ahahahah.. i dont know, it just makes you feel pig-ish! kae, im full of
crap today.. dont mind me.. alright, will blog later.. gotta go out now! loveyall~

2003-03-30T03:18:00.000-08:00

[you took my heart away *]
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream
But you...
Saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home
And now...
I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold (living in a world so cold)
You are there to warm my soul (you are there to warm my soul)
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now...
I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We'll never be alone

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning of my life
You become the meaning
You become the meaning of my life

sunday!
woke up at 7plus,
sent a couple of messages,
went back to slumberland!
at 945,
dad tripped over me..
dad : aiyo! what was that?
me : wah lao eh!!
dad : WHAT?!
(apparently he got a shock cos he thought i was awake.. hmmmmm)
me : ah whatever nevermind nevermind. shoo!
smart right?
wow.
tripped over me.
yes,
and woke me up!
eck!
sent a few MORE messages
went to have breakfast,
bathed.
met sis in church,
attended mass with her.
oh wait!
wanted to drink the water from de water cooler
but didnt cos ..
yes, SARS. =)
what else?
ummm..
saw daniel.
mathew,
joe,
paul,
mark,
marie ah and a hell lotta people.
kae,
so here i am,
blogging cos im BORED.
oh yes!
no tuition today cos of sars.
LOL.
how stupid.
eck!
oh well,
once again,
thanks to all who signed my guestbook,
tagged me or left whatever note in here.
so yep²!
thankies!
ahahahaha!
nuts.
kae,
i think i am nuts.
LOL.
tas!

2003-03-29T04:48:00.000-08:00

You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.

What Kind of Smile are You?
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[if your heart's not in it *]
I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said," Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didnt like me none, but I loved your grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet, and run away together
Get married in the first towm we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said

*If you get there before I do, don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down, Darling wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you..love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you... love me

whee! i just got home. at least there was some fun today. =) had choir at 2, walked over to my "sister's" house to get a lift from her parents. oh! whilst waiting for her mum, i watched golf, soccer, dart. ahahah! lame-ified. kae, so went to church, bumped into joel on our way up. three of us (sis, me, joel) were like oh uh uh uh h.. hi. lol. pathetic! heck. then after choir went to play badminton. walked past the street soccer court, saw the whole BHSU clan. well, almost all of 'em. said hi, and was off to my sis's house. was having fun playing with my sis then some pro (stares at YOU) comes and *jumps about* and says she wants to play. so well enough, she played. whoa! whacked me upside down. not literally of course. wah lao. take pity on me, gurl. you were in school team and im like just playing for the fun of it! -yawn- tired. tho its only like 8plus. LOL. oh well, im shagged. kae, after badminton i walked home, hadta past the street soccer court so i stayed there and watched 'em play. really good i tell ya. my neighbour and gd friend were playing. eck! then i poured almost half a bottle of cold water on the "pro". ahahahah! but she stood there and waited for me to pour. so yeah =) am i boring you? lol. kae, i gotta go now anyway. take care! loveya'll.

2003-03-28T17:24:00.000-08:00

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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[I'd do anything*]
Another day is goin' by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cause so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand, yeah

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cause somehow I can't
Put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me
Cause I know I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreamin' of droppin' out of school
And leave this place
And never come back

So now, maybe after all these years
If you miss me, have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waitin'

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand
And I just can't let you
Leave me once again, yeah

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cause somehow I can't
Put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me
Cause I know I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you

Na na na
Na na na
And I'd do anything for you
Na na na
Na na na naaaaaaaa

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cause somehow I can't
Put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you

To fall asleep with you
With you, yeah
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cause I know I won't forget you

morning²! =) -yawn-
what a boring saturday.
normally by this time, i'd be getting ready to go to novena with my cousins and parents.
today, no one's going.
why?
sars. cos tan tock seng's behind novena square. wow. =x
ive got nothing to do!
sheesh.
there's nothing on tv, no one online.
good thing im going out later. at 'bout 1 plus or something.
cornified!
those people with birthdays around this time -sighs-
where to go?
town?
dont think parents would allow.
-shrugs-
unlucky.
hk rocks =/.
cant they just like close their airports and not allow tourists to enter?
self-centered things.
no offence to those from there.
dahh.
stuck at home!
and the weather's so friggin' hot.
whats up!!
*screams*
can someone come online?!
eck!
still early?
i suppose.
not even 10am.
but still!
-yikes-
i think im 'bleah-ed'.
alright, shall go sign ppl's gbks.
or tag 'em.
takkaire have fun.
what a boring saturday.

2003-03-28T06:24:00.000-08:00

I'm a Faerie Paint Brush

I am very kind hearted and friendly.

If something is being abused

I do whatever I can to stop it

[something that wasn't there before*]
There's something sweet and almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he's dear and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before

She glanced this way, I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No, it can't be I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before

New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see

Well who'd have thought
Well bless my soul
Well who'd have known
Well who indeed
And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own
It's so peculiar
We'll wait and see
a few days more
There may be something there that wasn't there before
You know perhaps there's something there that wasn't there before
There may be something there that wasn't there before

whee! im back here blogging again. =) listen to this. the Archbishop sent an official message, telling people not to hold hands when singing 'Our Father' or shake hands when saying peace. goodness! the SARS thing is getting pretty bad, isnt it? kae, whatever it is.. everyone just take precautions. -shrugs- thts all i suppose. we're on hols but whats the point? i'd rather go to school - seriously. besides the fact that we get to wake up late. or rather, later than usual. still cannot wake up as late as some PIGS. ahahahah! no offence kaes? here i am blogging away. and there my mum's watching survivor. oh goodness!! im goofed tonight!! =x ahahahahah!

neighbour!!- kae i dont know why in the WORLD or how we started chatting about 'that'. ahahahah! but its totally hilarious. had lotsa fun tonight. thanks! =)

seishen- ey! sorry ah. my own comp screwed so im using my parents' comp thts why. kae, cya on sunday or something. oh wait, maybe tmr. yep! kae, takkaire! =)

goodnight to all of you out there. have a great weekend! survivor's still on so im ciao-ing outta here to go watch the last couple o' mins! thanks to all who've tagged me or left a msg in my gbk or linked me or bothered to pay this blog a visit. hahahah! told you i was GOOFY! kkaes, nights to all, sleep tight, dont let e bed bugs bite!

2003-03-28T00:58:00.000-08:00

[if you're not the one*]
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
but I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
and I hope you are the one I share my life with...

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it , I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it,
I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way I can stay in your arms?

You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.

What kind of kiss are you?
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seriously, im a computer idiot. ahahah! well i hope all of you out there are having fun? tho some paranoid parents dont let their teens/kids go out cos their afraid of SARS. what to do. sickening HK. =x what can i say people? just enjoy your hols for the time being. oh yes, thanks ele! =)

2003-03-27T23:43:00.000-08:00

hey syl !! there was some error at first. had to keep working on this.. and im proud i did sumthin not bad fer u.. (: i realli hope u lyk it. if u need any help can ask me alrite? i love you dearr! (: -tween

2003-03-27T23:36:00.000-08:00

ele helped! (: